lookin forward to it. :)

so there are several things i'm looking forward to once i am no longer pregnant.. and i've decided to make a list of all these things. :)

• OBVIOUSLY i am so very excited to hold my baby girl in my arms! and kiss her, and cuddle her, and dress her up in all her cute new clothes, and just love her all the rest of my days. :)
• i cannot wait to wear my normal clothes again! Andrew and i talked about this last night.. i don't even feel like i need to go shopping.. i can just shop my closet! there are so many clothes that i can't fit into right now, and i can't wait to fit into them again!
• SHOES. i miss my heels. i miss the way i feel when I'm wearing them. i miss looking at them and loving them. i can't wait to wear my high heels again.
• working out. i have been CRAVING this. while it has been great eating whatever i want, whenever i want it, i miss having a routine and being disciplined and most of all.. being SKINNY. i can't wait to lose weight and be little again. i always thought of myself as chubby, even at my lowest weight, and when i look back now i think to myself, "gosh i was so thin." i hope i never take that for granted again!
• being COMFORTABLE. obviously i realize i won't get a lot of sleep with a newborn baby, but i don't get any sleep now and it's because i can't get comfortable! i toss and turn all night, trying to find a position that will give me some relief from my aching back and hips. i will consider it a blessing to be able to lay on my back and stomach again, because those are just out of the question right now!
• i feel like i won't worry about the baby as much when she is on the outside. last night i was just laying in bed for what seemed like hours willing her to move, kick, or do SOMETHING to let me know she was ok. several times i almost woke Andrew up and said, "ok, lets go to the hospital." i worry about her constantly. if i am not feeling her move every second i worry that there is a problem. maybe I'm wrong, but i feel like if i could see her, touch her, and hold her, i wouldn't worry about her safety as much. we'll see if this is true in a few weeks haha

so this is my list. i'm sure there are more things to add.. but this will do for now. :) cheers!